Week eleven starts on Monday. It’s very almost the end of my first semester of my first year (the second time around), so I thought I’d do a little bit of a review and a comparison to this time last year.
So far, the year has gone amazingly. This year has so far been better than I could have imagined, and I think that’s for a variety of reasons.
It’s really been a couple of months of unlearning in a way. Journalism is different from anything I’ve studied before. For the past three years I’ve been focused almost entirely on the sciences, and even GCSEs, which seem a million years ago now, weren’t really enough to prepare me for this. My old way of learning has been made completely redundant and whilst that’s a little scary, I’m glad.
All through secondary school and college, and last year at university, I had to work constantly to get the grades I achieved. My little brother, who sat his GCSEs last year, was able to get away with minimal studying outside of class, whereas I had to be working all the time, so much that I didn’t really get much of a Christmas break during my A-Levels and when my youngest brother was a baby and his crying woke me up in the night, my brain would immediately be trying to work out a made up maths equation. It wasn’t a healthy way of living, or studying.
For the first time that I can remember, I don’t have to be constantly working in order to do well. I’m not saying that I show up to lectures and that’s it. I do work outside of class, but nothing more than the required reading and any set work, really. I can relax and hang out with my friends without panicking that I should be doing something else. It’s a little strange, after so long of constantly working, but I like it.
Comparing this year to last year isn’t really fair. I was unhappy with my course, over-worked, and incredibly stressed. This year, I’m getting the help I need to cope with learning differences I didn’t even know I had last year, and I feel completely at home with my course. This year is an entire world away from last year.
This time last year I was panicking about all the revision I was going to have to do over the Christmas break (which I didn’t end up doing after I decided to drop my course). Most of my exams this year are before the winter break, in week 12. So that’s less revision time and, really, I should be panicking. But I’m not. I feel completely relaxed about my media law and my news writing exams, and a little nervous about my philosophy exam. My politics exam is after the winter break, and I’ll be doing lots of revision for that, but not as much as I was expecting to do over the winter break last year.
This year I’ll get to enjoy my winter break, like I’m enjoying my course.